I NEED IT

basic, crucial, essential, fundamental, imperative, mandatory, required, vital, significant, principal, the ocean, ultramarine, the deep, the sea, the foam

I’ve been thinking about all the playlists I have ever made. I think about what will happen the day Spotify Premium gets too expensive for me. It already is too expensive in the cents that….

paying poverty wages
demonetizing songs under 1,000 plays
highly paid executives
underpaid living artists

I think about how I take advantage of Spotify’s flimsy copyright system, they file after uploading to stream, a retroactive ask that is sent to estates and lost addresses.

I’ve been thinking about personal memory and the archive I have already been making. I have been thinking about sourcework.

What counts? Do I have to translate these playlists into word documents? EXCEL SHEETS? A platform that can be accessed and enjoyded in a generous air way. The idea of mixtape comes to mind.

Are there already too many mixtapes in the world? What is the point of my own very specific discography and compilation of memories? Oh wait I am your girlfriend and I love you. I am your mango pie.

I want to somehow export the playlists I have been making. I want to spend time preserving order and memory. I want to save my monthly playlists and my mood/topic playlists. How do I make this accessible? Wait actually I am just going to talk your ear off and give you a CD. I am going to hop in your car and explain myself.

sourcework

interior world

self-portraiture through identification with other

materiality of memory adamantly synthetic

fantasy and reality of harmony

no archive will restore you

illusion always has to be cut through

changing and the same

specific to my voice and making to construct for test of my life (and that’s all)

digging
for the answers

maintaining your archive desire to broaden the field
representation and absence

this ought to be shared!